It's another Monday

Well, what can I say . . . it's Monday. The forecast is calling for snow, but I don't believe that it's going to be anything major (maybe I will surprised, but I doubt it). Honey keeps saying that I won't have to go to work tomorrow, but I keep telling him that I'd rather psychologically be ready for work only to not have to go as opposed to hoping that I won't have to go, but end up having to. No expectations! Speaking of expectations . . .

No one tells you this (well, maybe they did and I just didn't listen), but once you get married, your expectations of your spouse change. For example, when Honey and I were dating, it seemed like he did things for me around our then apartment, without me even asking. I will never forget the weekend that I was away with my sorority sisters. I was dog-tired when I got home, but to my delight, Honey had cleaned the entire apartment from top to bottom. I was completely floored. I never asked him to do it or mentioned anything about it needing to be clean. He just did it. Now, there is no question that our house needs to be cleaned on a regular basis, but it's like he has absolutely no clue. He'll acknowledge that things need to get done, but heaven forbid he actually initiate the cleaning effort . . . I'd pee myself if he did!!

A few weeks ago, I mentioned getting a housekeeper/cleaning lady, hoping that perhaps he would realize how ridiculous that would be considering he is home 3 days a week. But, he didn't get it and proceeded to suggest places where I could look to find someone. Can you believe that?!?!? Now, when I am at home for any length of time, I'm constantly doing things. If I was at home as much as he is, I honestly believe that our house would be spotless. But, unless I specifically tell him to do something, like vacuum the floors, I'm not entirely sure what he does with his days. And, while he is in school, he doesn't spend the entire day studying or doing schoolwork so that has been thought of and dismissed as an excuse. What's funny is he actually has the nerve to say that he's going to get a t-shirt made that says, "I'm the husband, not the butler." Only he thinks that shit is funny because as far as cleaning our house goes, he doesn't do near enough shit!!! Oh well, what are you going to do?

What have I gotten myself into?

It doesn't matter where I go, it's always the same thing . . . employers just don't know what to do with me! Or, maybe it's just that I keep picking the wrong jobs. I don't know, but one thing I do know is I am totally and completely frustrated!!!

While I understood that my recruitment position was something new and something that was without much foundation (for lack of a better word), I had no idea that it was going to be this crazy and chaotic. If it weren't for the fact that the person who had my job before me is working in a different department, I would have been totally screwed for the last three weeks. My boss has been pretty hands off as far as getting me acclimated goes and has been very generous in terms of giving me a whole lot of new things to do! Now, it seems that they want me to take on even more before I truly even know the enormity of the job that I am supposed to be doing!

Someone in another department, that is somewhat interrelated to mine, has decided to leave just as things in that department (and mine for that matter) are about the switch into high gear. So, my boss, along with the other department's head, decided that it would be a good idea for me to help out their department while they find a replacement for the person who is leaving. As if the job that I have isn't quite enough, they are adding more to my plate before I've even had the chance to get comfortable.

This wouldn't be so bad if the position that I am in was more clearly defined. Then I would have some way of putting an emphasis on certain boundaries, etc. However, as it stands, I'm not entirely sure what it is that I'm supposed to be doing and neither does anyone else, so they keep putting more and more things on my plate. What I don't believe I have mentioned is the fact that I am an office of ONE . . . that one being ME! I have no dedicated administrative support to do all of the massive things that need to be done, yet, they keep coming up with all of these new projects to be included in this year's recruitment activities and it is just a little more than ridiculous! Clearly, I am going to need to set some ground rules with my boss, but he's totally useless because he really has no clue as to what goes into doing what needs to be done for the big recruitment event this coming spring.

The other issue is making sure that what I say is "politically correct." I haven't been here for even a month, so I can't go in and talk to my boss with a cloud of negativity looming, otherwise I'm not being a team player. As much as I thought I was unhappy at my other job, I don't know that I have gotten myself into a better situation, because as of right now, I am feeling like I made a HUGE MISTAKE leaving my old job (number 4 of the now 5 jobs that I have had in 2 years)! And, the bad thing about it is, I can't leave this one!!!!!